Resolution Revolution

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In thinking of New Year's resolutions this year, the above idea came to mind. I call it "Resolution Revolution".

In years past I've been thoughtful, reflective, and goal oriented in considering my approach for the upcoming year.

This year, I'm just driving my wheels over all that and cruising forward. Goal-less. Aimless. Except perhaps, to have fun. To do what makes me happy.

Why the revolution? Here's the really short version. I'm due this May with my 2nd child. I'm over the moon to give Miles a little sister, but there have been some surprises and twists and it's taken me months to make sense of it. The week I found out I was expecting I was offered my first trade picture book job. Two weeks later, I turned the job down.

If I were a different artist, person, or mother I could have made it work. But I'm just me. And me couldn't find a way to make it work. Should I be thrilled that I was at least offered the job? Of course. But I've been mired in a creative depression, mixed with morning sickness, and scrambled together with a feeling of 'Now what?'.

After months of not sketching, not blogging, and just not caring, I finally got the urge to do something. I blogged on PBJ's about G. Brian Karas' book 'Clever Jack Takes the Cake' last week so I decided to use a similar technique (pencil and gouache on ribbed paper) to get my hand on a brush and finish something. Here's a detail:

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I'm not sure what's next. But I thought it was about time I shared. And painted. Phew.